I'm done

from now on I refuse to obsess. I am going to be low key and stress free. I will be a laid back person if it kills me. fuck it.

up to this point

I'm going to do it. I'm going to wait for him. I like him so much already....We've been texting all day since Saturday, he's in Yakima until the 8th, home for a week and then iraq for a year. I will be seeing him when he's home....i'm hoping to spend a decent amount of time with him....however, Im not really sure what's going to happen. I get to see him at least once...which is better than nothing. I'll take that. that's about all....I care about him so deeply and really hope that it only grows and that he cares more and more for me. until then

xo
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Last night

So last night. Guess who texted me. I hadn't heard from him for like 2 weeks. I know he's been crazy busy getting stuff together, packing and preparing to be gone for a year..but I would have appreciated a note telling me that he was still interested in me! Since then I have met 2 different guys, one nothing and the second might be something....but I don't know if I should get into something because i want to be there for him while he's away and get together with him when he comes home. Plus...he's coming home in august for a week and I want to spend time with him then....what to do?? If I get into a relationship with the one guy....I couldn't do anything with d when he's home. but at the same time I really would like someone to hang out with the next year. I mean and it's not like we're technically in a relationship or anything....we went on one date and had sex twice....but I know I really like him and want to be with him. ugh. it's so complicated. I feel like I should let the new guy go....but at the same time it's not like i have anything with d or really any guarantee.

TELL ME WHAT TO DO?!