I love you?

How is I love you an insult? How can it be so offensive. I don't get it. I love you I love you I love you. guess you'll just have to deal with it andrew.

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I don't know

How can you tell someone you love them and then disappear and not treat them with care.
How can you be so sweet and loving and then ignore
How can you be so cruel to someone who loves you
How can you lie to me so sweetly
How can i fall for you so hard when you're obviously superficial and fake

I'm so torn up inside--can't decide
If I want to live without you or die without you.
If I cut my heart out, maybe the pain will go away
If I never talk to you I may die again
If you tell me you love me one more time I may disappear

What have I done to deserve being lied to
What have I done to have you treat me like this
Why do you lead me on so cruelly
Why do you care for none but yourself

I wish I didn't care so much,
but truth is, I fell in love with you
It's too late for me

Save yourself while you still can

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3 days

omg I'm going psycho....i miss him so much! I haven't talked to him in 3 days. ugh I hate going crazy like this...I miss him so bad. boo....I WANT MY CHRISTOPHER!!!! I want him so bad so bad so bad. Crossing my fingers and crossing my heart...please come to me tonight baby???!!


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in love

I'm in love I'm in love I'm in love with a wonderful guy!!!

Ok so enough of that cheesy stuff....been singing that song to myself all day. He told me last night that he loves me. I'm sooo happy. It's still going to be a little while til he gets out here. he's still stuck in Atlanta....is supposed to be home to Florida any time now....then from there 4-6 wks til he gets out to Seattle. I'm so excited to be with the man I love. We've been chatting and getting closer for almost a year now....and It's almost time to meet him. I wonder how long it will be until our happily ever after?? and yes I do believe it will happen with Chris....he's amazing! My dream guy really....I hope I'm everything he thinks I am :)

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*sigh*

I'm soooo falling in love....there's this awesome guy...and he's finally moving here.../july or august and I'll finally get to meet him etc. I'm so excited. I had my first dream about him last night. i wish i remembered it :( but he's going to be here soon!!!! finallllly. i think he's my prince charming....i really do :)

single again?

wellll So I feel like I'm more open than ever. I have a date tomorrow, and a couple other possibilities....just seeing what happens. I wonder if anything will come of any of this...but I do think I'm getting better at putting myself out there. I feel stronger and more secure in my sexuality. That's a good thing for sure! anyway...after yesterdays low I feel a bit better today. peace out.

be the superwoman you can be!

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dumped

there was no spark. it wasnt that great. he just had all the appearances and all the pieces fit together. it wasn't spectacular and obviously it wasnt meant to be. im still looking for my prince to sweep me off my feet. i doubt it will ever happen. but i wonder how many guys left until i find the right one....hmmmmm

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