I haven't talked to him yet today

and it's driving me crazy. I've been easily irritable at my son (he was home sick today) and i was moping and looking at my phone every 5 seconds. I have kept my texts to him at a very minimum today I think I only sent him 2 possibly 3 all day. He told me he gets off work at two. it's 5:45 now. He works far away and i know if he doessn't drive he has to wait around til everyone else gets off work at 5 and then he heads home. He also can't bring his phone into work, so this means I basically don't hear from him all day. It scares me at this early point in our relationship. I don't know him well enough to know everythings ok, you know?? I bet he has a work email address or even phone that he could call me from and take like 5 seconds...but of course we're not even together yet...so why would he..but not hearing from him all day seriously kills me. He's supposed to come over tonight when he gets home. I keep watching out my window hoping he'll just pop in and surprise me. He won't of course because of the lack of relationship and not knowing each other all that well. I'm basically pulling out my hair and going crazy. I'm agitated and fidgety.

What to do. If he's taking the rideshare home...he won't be home for like another half hour to hour....and then even if he calls me right away it's still a long time away. i hope he comes sooner rather than later! I might have a nervous breakdown if he takes too long. I mean, seriously. What's wrong with me. The first night we talked and messed around and had an awesome time which we both expressed to each other. I hope he hasnt picked up on that I'm basically obsessed with him at this point. It wouldn't be so bad if we were actually an item...but of course not yet. I just want to get to know him and spend as much time with him as I can before he ships out! I know what I want and he is sooo fitting the bill. i know all this but of course if he finds out any of this i'm screwed and I'll be single for sure.... okay...wish me luck tonight. If i'm lucky he'll stay overnight...if he stays I'll fill you in tomorrow night. If he leaves I'll fill you in later tonight. i'm outtie

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