work's been pretty quiet this morning. It's given me time to think about stuff...but it's all so complicated. I've realized that i don't think i started this relationship off right...well whatever it is. but at least I've gotten to the point where i don't really care and if nothing else ill have fun with him until he leaves for iraq or decides im to crazy.
he was on vacation this weekend....and i was totally surprised he texted me a couple times. That's a good sign right?? anyway I got annoying and unwanted relationship advice from a girl I was road tripping with to the ocean (for a friends bridal shower). she told me that obviously he wasn't into me because he waited 9 days to call. she said he obviously had 8 other chics to call. he said he didn't call me earlier because he was super busy at work. I dont' start off thinking guys are lying to me....so whats up with that??? I think yeah I'm definitely not his top priority at the moment (but thats part of my evil plan) but I definitely don't think hes out fucking up 8 other girls. I just don't think that's him. I mean call me crazy, but I have spent time with him and talked to him quite a bit...he's just a nice guy who likes his job and lives hella far away from it. plus he's a teacher and has had people graduating from his program....i dont know. I'm inclined to believe him not her...becuase why not? I trust him and if this doesn't work out....I guess it's not that bad...
All I know is that he's a really special guy. I could easily fall in love with him. For now I'm holding back and biding my time....it could be up to 2 years for something to really happen with him, since he's going to Iraq and all. I'm just taking the pressure off and making it about fun, sex and hanging out. I want to keep in touch with him when hes gone and send packages. I think that if anything happens between us that will be where we would build a friendship relationship to make it a good relationship when he gets home. anyway...bye for now
xo
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